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Name: Lauren
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Birthday: 5/10/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: reading, running working out sports swimming, making music, reading, watching movies, going to class ( the interesting ones), hiking, rock climbing, cooking- most of the time, the yankees, meeting new people (somtimes), health/nutrition
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  LDC2204
Member Since:
5/26/2003
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| we're so far in this that i don't even know what's going on anymore to be honest.
i don't even know what i think about it anymore. i think everything. that's what i think. and that's probably why i'm so confused.
all i wanted before was to make you hurt...just shed one tear over this whole shitty situation.
but i don't eve know anymore. i still want you to realize everything that's happened. but i just want to end this year on a 'ok' note. we can be civil, can't we?
the crappy part is that i saw all of this coming. that's why was i so upset in the beginning...because i saw this...all of this in the future.
and after everything. it still sucks losing your best friend.
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| the last straw....
i was so surprised last night....but why? i guess i never really thought she had the audacity to bring him over...sober at least. but she definitely does and i should know that already. so that was it. unfortunately i had gone to see rambo last night, which didn't help my anger.
so now what? he lied, she's a whore. i'm moving out.
well i'm not so sure about the moving out part happening immediately...but i'm moving on. cutting her out. nothing good can come from staying friends with her.
the thing now is that i have to focus myself on other things. making stronger friendship with other people and maintaining some. but all i want to do right now is really hurt her.
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| so here's where we are...
i came to the conclusion that things (and people) aren't really what i thought they were. i tried to act accordingly by 'rising above everything' and having fun despite what has happened, in turn teaching you a lesson. but of course that didn't work out as i planned. although you tend to get under my skin alot more often than before, i sometimes revert back to the old me. sometimes its hard for me to remember to stay smart about it. sometimes i constantly have to remind myself that things aren't the same. the truth is you can never tell the whole truth when you want to. because the truth won't solve anything. it will only make things worse. why do people get most defensive with the people they feel most comfortable?
it's all in my head and i just can't get it out of there. i really want to.
still no solution.
i guess there are just situations where you won't see eye to eye.
i want to get away from here
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| i don't even know what's going on anymore
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| fuck this....it's got me all twisted. i want to hit something with a bat
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